We waited so long!

The journey Neil and I endured before we got to bring you home was heartbreaking, grief stricken and at times to devastating for words!

Layla & Kayden were our 5th pregnancy! They were the ones we got to bring home and finally proudly being able to put up that photo of their dadda holding them leaving the hospital in their car seats.

Fast forward to now and we have two, two year olds and what a ride it has now become! At times it’s a ride where we have wanted to scream with sheer terror! Other times we have rode along enjoying the twists and turns with a contentment that speaks volumes. At times we have wanted to get off the ride altogether!!

For me getting of the ride is more about slowing down time! My eyes keep prickling with tears as I watch our beautiful babies become developed toddlers.

Each day they surpass my expectations and surprise us with a new word or skill that they demonstrate so wonderfully. I am in awe of these little humans and can’t quite believe that we made them and got to bring them home.

Yet sometimes my heart pulsates with trepidation as I see the time flying by far too fast! My heart sinks a little when our little girl looks me in the eyes and says “self” as she takes control and does whatever tasks on her own!

Those once vulnerable bundles of joy are now amazingly talented, strong minded, well developed toddlers.

It is of course an absolute pleasure to be apart of their growing and maybe just maybe take some credit for this new found confidence and independence, yet my heart breaks a little inside too!

We waited so long to have this! In a flash the time has gone by and I dread the days coming too fast when we will be waving them off at the school gates!

So as much as it truly is an honour to parent them both and watch their development, I hope that on the difficult days when everything seems so hard and impossible i remember that it will all be gone too quickly and I should relish every single second!