A place in my heart

I have always written when it’s baby loss awareness and the wave of light time. However this year I found it really difficult to want to write or to find the words. I have always said that grief doesn’t heal with time. I think we learnt to carry on in the new world we findContinue reading “A place in my heart”

Quiet Days

Life can sometimes be so very busy with Layla and Kayden. Often I’m caught up in my own thoughts wondering whether I am doing a good job as mum. As they grow and develop everyday brings new challenges and most days feel like a blur or whirlwind of mayhem with our two little active hurricanes!Continue reading “Quiet Days”

Comparison

Sometimes I feel like a lost child who still needs her mum and dad. I’m not sure if these feelings are valid and acceptable as an adult and a parent myself. I’m not sure if it is because it’s approaching my own mums birthday and the milestone of seventy years old. It seems so unrealContinue reading “Comparison”

Saddened and Maddened

In the news this week they reported about Britney Spears (famous singer) who at 40 has lost her baby. The press printed Britney’s personal tweet on Twitter where she states that maybe they shouldn’t have announced the pregnancy as early as they did but they got carried away with the excitement. I am desperately saddenedContinue reading “Saddened and Maddened”

Bad mum!

No matter whether you are a biological, non biological or bereaved mum, we all have those times and days when we feel like a bad mum. I know dads feel like this too but I am writing from my own perspective so will be talking as mum. Sometimes we can’t do right for doing wrongContinue reading “Bad mum!”

One year!

I can’t quite believe we have had a whole year of loving you upon your arrival! People often say it goes so fast and in so many ways it does! You will always be our babies but at the moment you are most definitely our little people. It has been an absolute pleasure to watchContinue reading “One year!”

Another Mother’s Day

This is the time of year I find difficult. I have said this on many occasions. It’s my birthday month and I always miss my own mum around that time but it is usually Mother’s Day quite soon after my birthday. It’s a day I can never let go unmarked in my blog. It’s theContinue reading “Another Mother’s Day”

Death Certificate

Another blogger that writes about baby loss awareness that I follow, posted about the fact that her babies death certificate shouldn’t be something she owns. I absolutely understand that this is definitely not the paperwork any parent would wish to own especially the process of going to a registry office to have it completed whilstContinue reading “Death Certificate”