Dear Layla and Kayden, Since you came into our lives, I have often thought of the impact my grief has on your lives. One of the biggest concerns I often think about is what you would think if you read my blogs in your future. I know that as a mother myself I have neverContinue reading “A letter to Layla & Kayden”
Category Archives: infertility
Life goes on…
After losing Kora and Ava I found that I walked in a world that I no longer recognised. For us our world had coming crashing down and time had stood still. Yet everywhere we looked life went on. It felt so surreal to me. We had lost our babies and were preparing to cremate themContinue reading “Life goes on…”
Pregnant 2-3 weeks
They say knowledge is power, well on this occasion I would argue it is more of a hindrance. Neil and I have been through so much trying to conceive, being pregnant and losing that we are now armed with facts most expectant people wouldn’t necessarily think about or know. We kept taking the digital testContinue reading “Pregnant 2-3 weeks”
To blog or not to blog!
I’ve been struggling to write this last week. I spoke with a good friend of mine and she made a comment about how people may not want to read my blog due to the current situation with Coronavirus. She is a sensitive, emotional and empathetic person and a comment like this doesn’t normally leave herContinue reading “To blog or not to blog!”
Loss and Love
Against all odds
My sense of smell was heightened. I was retching at the dog poo bin. My appetite was decreased but when I was hungry I felt sick. All the signs of my previous pregnancies! My menstrual cycle wasn’t due for another 2 days but I went to the toilet that evening as I had enough ofContinue reading “Against all odds”
A Different Kind of Mother
What image do you conjure up when you think of a Mother? Is she radiant? Does she have an apron on with children sat in high chairs? Is she worn out and not looking her best? Do you think of a Mother who doesn’t have any living biological children? I believe I became a MotherContinue reading “A Different Kind of Mother”
They were dead inside!
I mentioned in another blog that I was 1 in 60,000 women that induction of labour didn’t work. I was in hospital for 10 days in total with my babies still in my womb. My bump was obviously there for all to see but it was only Neil and I that knew our babies wereContinue reading “They were dead inside!”
Stars in the Sky 