Next month it will be two whole years since we were told our first babies, Kora and Ava (identical twins) had no heartbeats. It will be two years since I went into labour and delivered them in a silent room with no cries from them as they entered the world but the raw sobs fromContinue reading “The tears aren’t falling.”
Category Archives: pregnancy loss
Round Two – again!
Neil and I have started our IVF round two again this month. I say again as we have tried to start round two in January 2020 and March 2020. The first time was cancelled as we found out the first round of IVF had resulted in a twin pregnancy where we miscarried one and theContinue reading “Round Two – again!”
The Right Support
As a self reflective woman, step and foster mum I strive to make sure my well being is cared for. I actively seek the support that I feel I might need to ensure that my emotions and state of mind do not affect those closet to me. It’s very difficult to know when my moodContinue reading “The Right Support”
Love, Laughter, Tears and Heartbreak.
Worth the wait
We all know the sayings. It will be worth the wait or all good things come to those who wait. I’ve written before about just how much waiting has been involved for Neil and I in relation to trying to conceive, conceiving, losing our babies and IVF. More recently I wrote about our miscarriage thatContinue reading “Worth the wait”
Day 1 (or not)
Couples who embark on IVF know exactly what is meant by day 1. It usually signifies the start of your menstrual cycle and the start of a round of IVF. Following Neil’s and my miscarriage we have been waiting for Day 1 so we could start our IVF round. On Sunday we believed that ourContinue reading “Day 1 (or not)”
A Mother’s Cry
A beautiful woman I know of wrote the other day about a mother’s cry. It was the cry of a mother whose child had died. She described it as a raw sound like nothing she had ever heard before. My thoughts went to my auntie and how she described her cries and screams when theContinue reading “A Mother’s Cry”
Like waiting for a bus!
We’ve all been there, stood at a bus stop waiting for what feels like an eternity for a bus. I’ve found our fertility journey very much like waiting for the bus. I’ve mentioned in previous posts that the waiting is what can be so difficult especially when you have no control over it. Unlike waitingContinue reading “Like waiting for a bus!”
Pin Cushion
I have been to hospital three more times. We thought the miscarriage had come to an end but I had a sudden loss of considerable amount of blood following some abdominal pains. Unexplained and unexpected. I only bent over and that’s when it happened. I am not asking for sympathy and I write about theContinue reading “Pin Cushion”
Are you ok?
A very British question that is often asked frequently and as part of our everyday general conversation and greetings. It is a question that has always bothered me particularly with our British culture of having a stiff upper lip (showing fortitude and stoicism in the face of adversity, or exercising great self-restraint in the expressionContinue reading “Are you ok?”
Stars in the Sky 