Two weeks ago I took Kayden to his hospital appointment. It was a check up in relation to his jitters/movements. On the very first appointment they had taken his bloods and wrote to us to say his neutrophils were low but that is normal in babies aged 5-8 weeks. He was 6 weeks old atContinue reading “The phone call”
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Rookie mistake
A rookie mistake (a basic mistake that a person with no experience might make). I have often written about the fact that I have been a mother for many years however being a mum to babies is new to me. It’s terrifying that I am making mistakes on these precious twins. It’s devastating that IContinue reading “Rookie mistake”
Guilt vs exhaustion
I’m unsure if I’m exhausted or burdened due to guilt or maybe I’m exhausted because of the guilt and it’s burden that I feel everyday. I wasn’t sure whether to even write this blog due to the guilt that I feel when I think all of the thoughts in my own head before I evenContinue reading “Guilt vs exhaustion”
How long do you have left?
Since being pregnant I have been self isolating due to the pandemic and it has been mainly winter weather time meaning I have been wrapped up and not so on display. So the bump has not been as obvious and of course it also took a while for it to blossom. In the last monthContinue reading “How long do you have left?”
Safety Manual and Guarantee
I don’t mind admitting that I have been having a few little breakdowns to close friends and a professional midwife. I am sure on the whole some of my anxiety is normal at this stage in pregnancy and with the realities of bringing them home being so close. However I know for a fact thatContinue reading “Safety Manual and Guarantee”
Third Trimester
I recently heard an analogy regarding the third trimester and it resonated with me. I want to take you back to the Brownlee Brothers running the marathon, I think we all remember that image of one brother carrying the other across the finish line. Third trimester feels very similar to me. I have the finishContinue reading “Third Trimester”
Viability
It’s official we are now 24 weeks pregnant. I have spoken before about the medical terminology and how both Neil and I have struggled with it in the past. In particular I struggle with the fact that Kora and Ava were medically labelled as non viable. This is because a baby under 24 weeks isContinue reading “Viability”
Pregnant in a pandemic
Neil and I know how blessed we are to be pregnant and we of course embarked on this knowing there was a pandemic. However we did this due to my age and because we had been trying long before Covid existed. There was also light at the end of the tunnel or so we allContinue reading “Pregnant in a pandemic”
Nesting
It’s an expression banded around especially when a pregnancy is talked about. It’s not just the human race that undertake it either. It’s the natural instinct to make your home organised and ready for the arrival. I have the urge to make the house ready and more prepared for the arrival of the twins yetContinue reading “Nesting”
Pregnancy after loss
I am writing this blog as I feel that there is a lack of awareness about how difficult it is to be pregnant after loss(es). As humans we always like to hear good news stories and I have noticed that when I write about my current pregnancy I get lovely responses and support. However whenContinue reading “Pregnancy after loss”