I’m unsure if I’m exhausted or burdened due to guilt or maybe I’m exhausted because of the guilt and it’s burden that I feel everyday. I wasn’t sure whether to even write this blog due to the guilt that I feel when I think all of the thoughts in my own head before I evenContinue reading “Guilt vs exhaustion”
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The ones that really count
I have always stated that one of the main reasons I write my blog is to raise awareness around pregnancy loss and hope that it will become a less taboo subject one day. Generally I am quite robust and resilient and I understand that people will make comments based on a lack of understanding orContinue reading “The ones that really count”
The Burrow Twins Arrival!
It’s been a long time since I wrote, mainly because I haven’t found the time but also because I was unsure how to put these words into print. The details in this blog will be very hazy and I needed time to process my thoughts and feelings before I shared the twins story. I haveContinue reading “The Burrow Twins Arrival!”
How long do you have left?
Since being pregnant I have been self isolating due to the pandemic and it has been mainly winter weather time meaning I have been wrapped up and not so on display. So the bump has not been as obvious and of course it also took a while for it to blossom. In the last monthContinue reading “How long do you have left?”
Too Posh to Push!
I am unsure who originally phrased Caesarean section (c-section) as a woman being too posh to push but as April is C section awareness month it feels appropriate to write and challenge some perceptions around this. It is also feels apt as we have been given our date for C section in the month ofContinue reading “Too Posh to Push!”
Harsh Reality
My last blog I wrote about how Neil and I were starting to dare to dream. We have been looking into extending or moving as we simply don’t have enough space for twins, Amy (step daughter) and Alissa (foster daughter). We were anxious about making these plans as we know that no pregnancy has anyContinue reading “Harsh Reality”
Day 1 (or not)
Couples who embark on IVF know exactly what is meant by day 1. It usually signifies the start of your menstrual cycle and the start of a round of IVF. Following Neil’s and my miscarriage we have been waiting for Day 1 so we could start our IVF round. On Sunday we believed that ourContinue reading “Day 1 (or not)”
A bitter pill to swallow
It’s 4am in the morning and I had been laying awake in bed with sudden overwhelming bursts of grief and tears. I’m going into hospital today to take a pill to end our pregnancy. We had an 8 week scan yesterday and it showed our fears that the baby’s heart had stopped. We had onlyContinue reading “A bitter pill to swallow”
I don’t know how to live in your world.
I know from various online and face to face groups that what I am feeling is ‘normal’. Today I am struggling. I don’t know if it’s me and my expectations. I don’t know if I’m too sensitive. I don’t know if it’s just grief. Today my tears just keep coming. I don’t know if it’sContinue reading “I don’t know how to live in your world.”
To blog or not to blog!
I’ve been struggling to write this last week. I spoke with a good friend of mine and she made a comment about how people may not want to read my blog due to the current situation with Coronavirus. She is a sensitive, emotional and empathetic person and a comment like this doesn’t normally leave herContinue reading “To blog or not to blog!”
Stars in the Sky 