Precious Moments

I finished my last blog talking about the comment from strangers mainly who tell me how lucky we are in reference to having one of each. As you know this is a loaded statement for me as I know just how very lucky we are to have Kayden and Layla at home and in ourContinue reading “Precious Moments”

The ones that really count

I have always stated that one of the main reasons I write my blog is to raise awareness around pregnancy loss and hope that it will become a less taboo subject one day. Generally I am quite robust and resilient and I understand that people will make comments based on a lack of understanding orContinue reading “The ones that really count”

How long do you have left?

Since being pregnant I have been self isolating due to the pandemic and it has been mainly winter weather time meaning I have been wrapped up and not so on display. So the bump has not been as obvious and of course it also took a while for it to blossom. In the last monthContinue reading “How long do you have left?”

Third Trimester

I recently heard an analogy regarding the third trimester and it resonated with me. I want to take you back to the Brownlee Brothers running the marathon, I think we all remember that image of one brother carrying the other across the finish line. Third trimester feels very similar to me. I have the finishContinue reading “Third Trimester”

Too Posh to Push!

I am unsure who originally phrased Caesarean section (c-section) as a woman being too posh to push but as April is C section awareness month it feels appropriate to write and challenge some perceptions around this. It is also feels apt as we have been given our date for C section in the month ofContinue reading “Too Posh to Push!”

Pregnancy after loss

I am writing this blog as I feel that there is a lack of awareness about how difficult it is to be pregnant after loss(es). As humans we always like to hear good news stories and I have noticed that when I write about my current pregnancy I get lovely responses and support. However whenContinue reading “Pregnancy after loss”

Failure

I had a medical assessment yesterday as social services require one because Neil and I are kinship foster carers. It involves answering questions about my general health and the doctor confirming any facts about my health and well being. I also have to undertake mobility, weight and height assessments. As part of the lengthy formContinue reading “Failure”

On the fence

We had another scan and this time the babies measured 14 weeks. This takes us back to the original dates we were given by the IVF clinic. We paid for this private scan as we were concerned about waiting till 16 weeks. We have also had lots of stress in relation to the house andContinue reading “On the fence”

Second Trimester

It has been a difficult week emotionally. I’m not sure if it’s my hormones at this stage or if it’s the fact the anniversary of my mum passing is fast approaching. I’m also very mindful that Kora and Ava passed in the second trimester. I don’t feel safe that we have reached the 13th week,Continue reading “Second Trimester”

Twelve weeks

It’s official we have reached twelve weeks. Interestingly I don’t feel relieved or safe. I am too aware that we lost Kora and Ava in the second trimester and that there are no guarantees in a pregnancy. This past week has been very stressful due to external factors. I was so stressed it blocked allContinue reading “Twelve weeks”