Precious Moments

I finished my last blog talking about the comment from strangers mainly who tell me how lucky we are in reference to having one of each. As you know this is a loaded statement for me as I know just how very lucky we are to have Kayden and Layla at home and in ourContinue reading “Precious Moments”

Safety Manual and Guarantee

I don’t mind admitting that I have been having a few little breakdowns to close friends and a professional midwife. I am sure on the whole some of my anxiety is normal at this stage in pregnancy and with the realities of bringing them home being so close. However I know for a fact thatContinue reading “Safety Manual and Guarantee”

Too Posh to Push!

I am unsure who originally phrased Caesarean section (c-section) as a woman being too posh to push but as April is C section awareness month it feels appropriate to write and challenge some perceptions around this. It is also feels apt as we have been given our date for C section in the month ofContinue reading “Too Posh to Push!”

Viability

It’s official we are now 24 weeks pregnant. I have spoken before about the medical terminology and how both Neil and I have struggled with it in the past. In particular I struggle with the fact that Kora and Ava were medically labelled as non viable. This is because a baby under 24 weeks isContinue reading “Viability”

Anxiety 1 – us 0

A week ago we went for yet another reassurance scan. We were hoping we would make the four weeks till the 28th December but our new best friend anxiety took a hold again. I was coping ok initially and feeling confident that I could go the four weeks. Neil however wasn’t coping. I think menContinue reading “Anxiety 1 – us 0”

Failure

I had a medical assessment yesterday as social services require one because Neil and I are kinship foster carers. It involves answering questions about my general health and the doctor confirming any facts about my health and well being. I also have to undertake mobility, weight and height assessments. As part of the lengthy formContinue reading “Failure”

Irrational or rational?

If you are reading this blog then I kindly ask that you respect the fact that I am already a mother. I am a mother to angels, a step daughter and a foster daughter. I feel that I am a mother with years of experience from the age 12+ and a mother with the mostContinue reading “Irrational or rational?”

On the fence

We had another scan and this time the babies measured 14 weeks. This takes us back to the original dates we were given by the IVF clinic. We paid for this private scan as we were concerned about waiting till 16 weeks. We have also had lots of stress in relation to the house andContinue reading “On the fence”

Harsh Reality

My last blog I wrote about how Neil and I were starting to dare to dream. We have been looking into extending or moving as we simply don’t have enough space for twins, Amy (step daughter) and Alissa (foster daughter). We were anxious about making these plans as we know that no pregnancy has anyContinue reading “Harsh Reality”

Transfer

I often wonder if I should share as much as I have done online for anyone to access. I worry that my life is readily available for anyone to read about. Then I remind myself that it is only a part of my life I am sharing and the reason I do is to helpContinue reading “Transfer”