I have never been an anxious person on the whole. I have the same small anxieties and worries as others but I would say I’m not a overly anxious person. That was until we lost our children. As a sign language interpreter for the Deaf, I was given a sign name (a sign to useContinue reading “The voice in my head.”
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I don’t know how to live in your world.
I know from various online and face to face groups that what I am feeling is ‘normal’. Today I am struggling. I don’t know if it’s me and my expectations. I don’t know if I’m too sensitive. I don’t know if it’s just grief. Today my tears just keep coming. I don’t know if it’sContinue reading “I don’t know how to live in your world.”
Life goes on…
After losing Kora and Ava I found that I walked in a world that I no longer recognised. For us our world had coming crashing down and time had stood still. Yet everywhere we looked life went on. It felt so surreal to me. We had lost our babies and were preparing to cremate themContinue reading “Life goes on…”
Pregnant 2-3 weeks
They say knowledge is power, well on this occasion I would argue it is more of a hindrance. Neil and I have been through so much trying to conceive, being pregnant and losing that we are now armed with facts most expectant people wouldn’t necessarily think about or know. We kept taking the digital testContinue reading “Pregnant 2-3 weeks”
To blog or not to blog!
I’ve been struggling to write this last week. I spoke with a good friend of mine and she made a comment about how people may not want to read my blog due to the current situation with Coronavirus. She is a sensitive, emotional and empathetic person and a comment like this doesn’t normally leave herContinue reading “To blog or not to blog!”
Disappearing hope!
How often are you looking at the time? It’s strange that we have been forced into a situation where we stay in and often have little to do or struggle to get through the demands of the day. I think I have looked at my watch more times then ever before! I fall in theContinue reading “Disappearing hope!”
Obsessive Mummy
We all know the ones right? The ones that from the moment they fall pregnant they bombard us with every tiny detail, be it in person or via social media. You know the scan pictures, the bump at this week, the baby just kicked, morning sickness, tiredness and then the baby arrives!!! It becomes constantContinue reading “Obsessive Mummy”
Bitter sweet
We should have been given a scan photo today of our embryos implanted safely. We should have come out and rested, wishing and hoping for the embryos to stick! Wishing that this time they would stick in the right places! We should have been filled with hope today. Embarking on our two week wait againContinue reading “Bitter sweet”
A letter to my embryos
To my embryos, I’m sorry the four of you are sat in the freezer for the foreseeable future. It’s a crazy world here at the moment as a virus called Covid-19 (Coronavirus) is making people ill and lots are dying. We are at present in a National Emergency state and our Prime Minister has askedContinue reading “A letter to my embryos”
I survived
I made it through Mother’s Day as I often do and it reminds me of how resilient I am. This year was very different as we all know right now we are living in a very different world. This year my heart also felt heavy for all the new mums that didn’t get to celebrateContinue reading “I survived”
Stars in the Sky 