I’m not sure if my fears and anxieties are similar to any other parent or if they are more extreme from our loses before Layla and Kayden. I remember when they were first born and we brought them home the health visitor completed a questionnaire around anxiety and I was off the scale. She recommendedContinue reading “Fear”
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Dates!
Neil is useless at remembering dates! He has always been useless at remembering and it’s something I struggle with as I don’t think it’s an excuse to NOT remember those really important anniversaries. However, it is something I’m learning to accept. It’s a tough thing to come to terms with as my mind battles withContinue reading “Dates!”
Mother’s Day 🩵
I can’t quite believe how quickly it comes around! A day I find so difficult yet so honoured to mark. I feel heartbroken that I can’t celebrate this day with my own mother even nearly 10 years on. Nearly 10 years of grief! Time most definitely hasn’t healed but it has numbed the rawness andContinue reading “Mother’s Day 🩵”
Merry & Bright
There are always times of the year that are harder than others. Christmas is one of those times. It’s impacted by the fact it’s the due date of Kora and Ava (20th December). It’s such a magical time of year but along with bringing joy it can bring so much sadness too! It’s hard toContinue reading “Merry & Bright”
Spring in my step
Spring had always been about new beginnings. Daffodils and bluebells starting to show up, little lambs springing in the fields. Spring has always been one of my most favourite times of the year. It resonates so much hope and new beginnings. Kora and Ava gave me another reason to be hopeful. We couldn’t believe theContinue reading “Spring in my step”
Mothering Sunday
It’s that time of year again when Mother’s Day is fast approaching! A day that I have often found challenging for one reason or another. When my own mum passed away it was a day I struggled with because my love for her never died but the joy of celebrating that day did! I wasContinue reading “Mothering Sunday”
Footprints
We are going on holiday soon and I’m so excited to take some time off and have some real quality family time together. I feel so privileged to be able to build these moments and memories with Layla & Kayden. It really is what dreams are made of to look back in the sand andContinue reading “Footprints”
A place in my heart
I have always written when it’s baby loss awareness and the wave of light time. However this year I found it really difficult to want to write or to find the words. I have always said that grief doesn’t heal with time. I think we learnt to carry on in the new world we findContinue reading “A place in my heart”
Quiet Days
Life can sometimes be so very busy with Layla and Kayden. Often I’m caught up in my own thoughts wondering whether I am doing a good job as mum. As they grow and develop everyday brings new challenges and most days feel like a blur or whirlwind of mayhem with our two little active hurricanes!Continue reading “Quiet Days”
Saddened and Maddened
In the news this week they reported about Britney Spears (famous singer) who at 40 has lost her baby. The press printed Britney’s personal tweet on Twitter where she states that maybe they shouldn’t have announced the pregnancy as early as they did but they got carried away with the excitement. I am desperately saddenedContinue reading “Saddened and Maddened”
Stars in the Sky 