Are they good babies?

It’s another question that I have been asked on so many occasions since bringing the twins home. Are they good babies? I am assuming the person asking is referring to how the babies are sleeping, whether they cry much or fuss about everything. Basically are they easy babies? I have never felt comfortable with thisContinue reading “Are they good babies?”

Overwhelming Emotions

After our first Christmas when we enter the dark days and nights of January and life becomes a little less hectic, there is time to reflect. Christmas didn’t go as I had imagined in my head and wasn’t as special as I had anticipated due to numerous reasons. However there were still some magical momentsContinue reading “Overwhelming Emotions”

A letter to Layla & Kayden

Dear Layla and Kayden, Since you came into our lives, I have often thought of the impact my grief has on your lives. One of the biggest concerns I often think about is what you would think if you read my blogs in your future. I know that as a mother myself I have neverContinue reading “A letter to Layla & Kayden”

Mixed emotions

Someone I know has recently had MCMA identical twin girls. I am genuinely happy for her and her partner for getting through the whole pregnancy and bringing home their bundle of joys. It became apparent that the hospital’s protocol and procedures has changed around MCMA twins (shortly after our pregnancy) and her treatment was differentContinue reading “Mixed emotions”

No need to try again!

I have often written about throw away comments made by not only friends and family but also strangers. Often these comments are human nature in our need to communicate with each other. They are said with no thought and are a comment meant with no harm. Interestingly when I walk around with the twins inContinue reading “No need to try again!”

Tears, patience, hope and love

Mummy struggles

The twins were 5 months old yesterday. I can’t quite believe that time has passed already. That’s roughly 152 days! Of which I would say I have absolutely enjoyed and fully appreciated 150 of those days! I think most Mums or Dads would feel guilty for saying that and I am really hard on myselfContinue reading “Mummy struggles”

Reflection

I have always believed vanity to mean a person that has an excessive pride or admiration of their own appearance or achievements. According to the above definition I wouldn’t consider myself a vain person but I know that I care about my appearance. I will take time to plan an outfit. I obsessively buy clothesContinue reading “Reflection”

Abstract

I spend the majority of my time with the twins even when I’m working they are at home with me. I believe in the 18 weeks of their lives I have had less than 50 hours away from them. Some of the reason for this is because I put pressure on myself to be theContinue reading “Abstract”

Rookie mistake

A rookie mistake (a basic mistake that a person with no experience might make). I have often written about the fact that I have been a mother for many years however being a mum to babies is new to me. It’s terrifying that I am making mistakes on these precious twins. It’s devastating that IContinue reading “Rookie mistake”