Precious Moments

I finished my last blog talking about the comment from strangers mainly who tell me how lucky we are in reference to having one of each. As you know this is a loaded statement for me as I know just how very lucky we are to have Kayden and Layla at home and in ourContinue reading “Precious Moments”

Safety Manual and Guarantee

I don’t mind admitting that I have been having a few little breakdowns to close friends and a professional midwife. I am sure on the whole some of my anxiety is normal at this stage in pregnancy and with the realities of bringing them home being so close. However I know for a fact thatContinue reading “Safety Manual and Guarantee”

Too Posh to Push!

I am unsure who originally phrased Caesarean section (c-section) as a woman being too posh to push but as April is C section awareness month it feels appropriate to write and challenge some perceptions around this. It is also feels apt as we have been given our date for C section in the month ofContinue reading “Too Posh to Push!”

Pregnant in a pandemic

Neil and I know how blessed we are to be pregnant and we of course embarked on this knowing there was a pandemic. However we did this due to my age and because we had been trying long before Covid existed. There was also light at the end of the tunnel or so we allContinue reading “Pregnant in a pandemic”

Pregnancy after loss

I am writing this blog as I feel that there is a lack of awareness about how difficult it is to be pregnant after loss(es). As humans we always like to hear good news stories and I have noticed that when I write about my current pregnancy I get lovely responses and support. However whenContinue reading “Pregnancy after loss”

Anxiety 1 – us 0

A week ago we went for yet another reassurance scan. We were hoping we would make the four weeks till the 28th December but our new best friend anxiety took a hold again. I was coping ok initially and feeling confident that I could go the four weeks. Neil however wasn’t coping. I think menContinue reading “Anxiety 1 – us 0”

Failure

I had a medical assessment yesterday as social services require one because Neil and I are kinship foster carers. It involves answering questions about my general health and the doctor confirming any facts about my health and well being. I also have to undertake mobility, weight and height assessments. As part of the lengthy formContinue reading “Failure”

In his head

I have asked Neil to write something for this blog so I could show a mans perspective around pregnancy loss, IVF and trying to conceive. However he is not very forthcoming with the goods! Believe it or not he is actually very good at expressing his feeling when he puts pen to paper. He wroteContinue reading “In his head”

A Mother’s Cry

A beautiful woman I know of wrote the other day about a mother’s cry. It was the cry of a mother whose child had died. She described it as a raw sound like nothing she had ever heard before. My thoughts went to my auntie and how she described her cries and screams when theContinue reading “A Mother’s Cry”

A Dad Like No other!

It’s Father’s Day and I wanted to take time out to acknowledge my husband, a dad to his beautiful 21 year old daughter Amy, a foster father to Alissa and a father to 6 angels. I have learnt through our fertility journey just how difficult it is for the man. I believe as a societyContinue reading “A Dad Like No other!”