This is the time of year I find difficult. I have said this on many occasions. It’s my birthday month and I always miss my own mum around that time but it is usually Mother’s Day quite soon after my birthday. It’s a day I can never let go unmarked in my blog. It’s theContinue reading “Another Mother’s Day”
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A letter to Layla & Kayden
Dear Layla and Kayden, Since you came into our lives, I have often thought of the impact my grief has on your lives. One of the biggest concerns I often think about is what you would think if you read my blogs in your future. I know that as a mother myself I have neverContinue reading “A letter to Layla & Kayden”
The season to be jolly
It is the most magical time of year and the season to be jolly, at least that’s what we all anticipate at Christmas time. The truth is that it is far from that for many and for very different reasons. This year for Neil and I, it is truly magical and jolly to be celebratingContinue reading “The season to be jolly”
Reflection
I have always believed vanity to mean a person that has an excessive pride or admiration of their own appearance or achievements. According to the above definition I wouldn’t consider myself a vain person but I know that I care about my appearance. I will take time to plan an outfit. I obsessively buy clothesContinue reading “Reflection”
Guilt vs exhaustion
I’m unsure if I’m exhausted or burdened due to guilt or maybe I’m exhausted because of the guilt and it’s burden that I feel everyday. I wasn’t sure whether to even write this blog due to the guilt that I feel when I think all of the thoughts in my own head before I evenContinue reading “Guilt vs exhaustion”
Safety Manual and Guarantee
I don’t mind admitting that I have been having a few little breakdowns to close friends and a professional midwife. I am sure on the whole some of my anxiety is normal at this stage in pregnancy and with the realities of bringing them home being so close. However I know for a fact thatContinue reading “Safety Manual and Guarantee”
Too Posh to Push!
I am unsure who originally phrased Caesarean section (c-section) as a woman being too posh to push but as April is C section awareness month it feels appropriate to write and challenge some perceptions around this. It is also feels apt as we have been given our date for C section in the month ofContinue reading “Too Posh to Push!”
Nesting
It’s an expression banded around especially when a pregnancy is talked about. It’s not just the human race that undertake it either. It’s the natural instinct to make your home organised and ready for the arrival. I have the urge to make the house ready and more prepared for the arrival of the twins yetContinue reading “Nesting”
Failure
I had a medical assessment yesterday as social services require one because Neil and I are kinship foster carers. It involves answering questions about my general health and the doctor confirming any facts about my health and well being. I also have to undertake mobility, weight and height assessments. As part of the lengthy formContinue reading “Failure”
On the fence
We had another scan and this time the babies measured 14 weeks. This takes us back to the original dates we were given by the IVF clinic. We paid for this private scan as we were concerned about waiting till 16 weeks. We have also had lots of stress in relation to the house andContinue reading “On the fence”
Stars in the Sky 