Neil is useless at remembering dates! He has always been useless at remembering and it’s something I struggle with as I don’t think it’s an excuse to NOT remember those really important anniversaries. However, it is something I’m learning to accept. It’s a tough thing to come to terms with as my mind battles withContinue reading “Dates!”
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No one pushes my buttons like her…
I haven’t written for a while and it’s not because I am in a blissful bubble of parenting but quite the opposite. I don’t know whether losing babies makes your guilt worse when you have been fortunate enough to eventually bring home what you always wanted. I sometimes wonder if I am even tougher onContinue reading “No one pushes my buttons like her…”
Mother’s Day 🩵
I can’t quite believe how quickly it comes around! A day I find so difficult yet so honoured to mark. I feel heartbroken that I can’t celebrate this day with my own mother even nearly 10 years on. Nearly 10 years of grief! Time most definitely hasn’t healed but it has numbed the rawness andContinue reading “Mother’s Day 🩵”
Merry & Bright
There are always times of the year that are harder than others. Christmas is one of those times. It’s impacted by the fact it’s the due date of Kora and Ava (20th December). It’s such a magical time of year but along with bringing joy it can bring so much sadness too! It’s hard toContinue reading “Merry & Bright”
Crawling under the duvet
One day last week I had been awake with the twins for about an hour before it was all too much and I literally removed myself by going upstairs and crawling under the duvet. Just before this I had failed miserably as a good mum and had screamed at the twins whilst stating I wantedContinue reading “Crawling under the duvet”
We waited so long!
The journey Neil and I endured before we got to bring you home was heartbreaking, grief stricken and at times to devastating for words! Layla & Kayden were our 5th pregnancy! They were the ones we got to bring home and finally proudly being able to put up that photo of their dadda holding themContinue reading “We waited so long!”
Spring in my step
Spring had always been about new beginnings. Daffodils and bluebells starting to show up, little lambs springing in the fields. Spring has always been one of my most favourite times of the year. It resonates so much hope and new beginnings. Kora and Ava gave me another reason to be hopeful. We couldn’t believe theContinue reading “Spring in my step”
Mothering Sunday
It’s that time of year again when Mother’s Day is fast approaching! A day that I have often found challenging for one reason or another. When my own mum passed away it was a day I struggled with because my love for her never died but the joy of celebrating that day did! I wasContinue reading “Mothering Sunday”
Footprints
We are going on holiday soon and I’m so excited to take some time off and have some real quality family time together. I feel so privileged to be able to build these moments and memories with Layla & Kayden. It really is what dreams are made of to look back in the sand andContinue reading “Footprints”
A place in my heart
I have always written when it’s baby loss awareness and the wave of light time. However this year I found it really difficult to want to write or to find the words. I have always said that grief doesn’t heal with time. I think we learnt to carry on in the new world we findContinue reading “A place in my heart”
Stars in the Sky 