I know lots of people struggle around this time of year for one thing or another and particularly as the nights draw darker and colder. I use to love this time of year and found joy in wrapping up warm and cozy fires. If I’m honest a part of me still does. I refuse toContinue reading “Grandma”
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No need to try again!
I have often written about throw away comments made by not only friends and family but also strangers. Often these comments are human nature in our need to communicate with each other. They are said with no thought and are a comment meant with no harm. Interestingly when I walk around with the twins inContinue reading “No need to try again!”
DNA
A friend visited our home the other day and whilst looking at Kayden she said how much he looked like Neil and asked jokingly if there was any of my DNA in him. She then went onto say that I just housed him for 9 months. Firstly I would like to state that this friendContinue reading “DNA”
The season to be jolly
It is the most magical time of year and the season to be jolly, at least that’s what we all anticipate at Christmas time. The truth is that it is far from that for many and for very different reasons. This year for Neil and I, it is truly magical and jolly to be celebratingContinue reading “The season to be jolly”
Tears, patience, hope and love
Tick box
Tuesday evening I was coming home from work and walked indoors at about 8:50pm. I was met by Neil holding Kayden. This is unusual as he is normally asleep then and both our babies are quite placid and only need comforting when something is needed. Neil was in the kitchen checking on our dinner, KaydenContinue reading “Tick box”
Abstract
I spend the majority of my time with the twins even when I’m working they are at home with me. I believe in the 18 weeks of their lives I have had less than 50 hours away from them. Some of the reason for this is because I put pressure on myself to be theContinue reading “Abstract”
The phone call
Two weeks ago I took Kayden to his hospital appointment. It was a check up in relation to his jitters/movements. On the very first appointment they had taken his bloods and wrote to us to say his neutrophils were low but that is normal in babies aged 5-8 weeks. He was 6 weeks old atContinue reading “The phone call”
I don’t know how!
I try to make my blog true to its origins of talking about pregnancy loss. I notice that the interaction is often a lot less when I talk about this. It is still very much a taboo subject. Raising awareness around this subject is still and probably even more important to me, now that IContinue reading “I don’t know how!”
Rookie mistake
A rookie mistake (a basic mistake that a person with no experience might make). I have often written about the fact that I have been a mother for many years however being a mum to babies is new to me. It’s terrifying that I am making mistakes on these precious twins. It’s devastating that IContinue reading “Rookie mistake”
Stars in the Sky 