They grow up everyone says. Since walking about with the pram I have been stopped on many occasions especially if people look in and spot two babies in the one carrier. I find it interesting what people say to me. normally the first question I get is “are they twins”? I wonder if it’s theContinue reading “Enjoy it while you can…”
Tag Archives: grief
Guilt vs exhaustion
I’m unsure if I’m exhausted or burdened due to guilt or maybe I’m exhausted because of the guilt and it’s burden that I feel everyday. I wasn’t sure whether to even write this blog due to the guilt that I feel when I think all of the thoughts in my own head before I evenContinue reading “Guilt vs exhaustion”
Precious Moments
I finished my last blog talking about the comment from strangers mainly who tell me how lucky we are in reference to having one of each. As you know this is a loaded statement for me as I know just how very lucky we are to have Kayden and Layla at home and in ourContinue reading “Precious Moments”
The ones that really count
I have always stated that one of the main reasons I write my blog is to raise awareness around pregnancy loss and hope that it will become a less taboo subject one day. Generally I am quite robust and resilient and I understand that people will make comments based on a lack of understanding orContinue reading “The ones that really count”
How long do you have left?
Since being pregnant I have been self isolating due to the pandemic and it has been mainly winter weather time meaning I have been wrapped up and not so on display. So the bump has not been as obvious and of course it also took a while for it to blossom. In the last monthContinue reading “How long do you have left?”
Safety Manual and Guarantee
I don’t mind admitting that I have been having a few little breakdowns to close friends and a professional midwife. I am sure on the whole some of my anxiety is normal at this stage in pregnancy and with the realities of bringing them home being so close. However I know for a fact thatContinue reading “Safety Manual and Guarantee”
Pregnant in a pandemic
Neil and I know how blessed we are to be pregnant and we of course embarked on this knowing there was a pandemic. However we did this due to my age and because we had been trying long before Covid existed. There was also light at the end of the tunnel or so we allContinue reading “Pregnant in a pandemic”
Nesting
It’s an expression banded around especially when a pregnancy is talked about. It’s not just the human race that undertake it either. It’s the natural instinct to make your home organised and ready for the arrival. I have the urge to make the house ready and more prepared for the arrival of the twins yetContinue reading “Nesting”
Pregnancy after loss
I am writing this blog as I feel that there is a lack of awareness about how difficult it is to be pregnant after loss(es). As humans we always like to hear good news stories and I have noticed that when I write about my current pregnancy I get lovely responses and support. However whenContinue reading “Pregnancy after loss”
Failure
I had a medical assessment yesterday as social services require one because Neil and I are kinship foster carers. It involves answering questions about my general health and the doctor confirming any facts about my health and well being. I also have to undertake mobility, weight and height assessments. As part of the lengthy formContinue reading “Failure”
Stars in the Sky 