Tag Archives: grief
They were dead inside!
I mentioned in another blog that I was 1 in 60,000 women that induction of labour didn’t work. I was in hospital for 10 days in total with my babies still in my womb. My bump was obviously there for all to see but it was only Neil and I that knew our babies wereContinue reading “They were dead inside!”
Obsessive Mummy
We all know the ones right? The ones that from the moment they fall pregnant they bombard us with every tiny detail, be it in person or via social media. You know the scan pictures, the bump at this week, the baby just kicked, morning sickness, tiredness and then the baby arrives!!! It becomes constantContinue reading “Obsessive Mummy”
Bitter sweet
We should have been given a scan photo today of our embryos implanted safely. We should have come out and rested, wishing and hoping for the embryos to stick! Wishing that this time they would stick in the right places! We should have been filled with hope today. Embarking on our two week wait againContinue reading “Bitter sweet”
Challenge accepted…
Ultimately I know that most people in the world don’t post anything on social media with malicious intent but rather to support each other or raise confidence especially at present with the pandemic. I admit it’s a very beautiful thing to do for each other. However my heart breaks a little more when I seeContinue reading “Challenge accepted…”
Reflection in the mirror
When I got pregnant naturally the first time I was a healthy weight. I have always been the kind of woman who is harsh on herself. I think most of us are. You never see what others see in you and we are our own worst critic. I have since fallen pregnant naturally again aContinue reading “Reflection in the mirror”
I survived
I made it through Mother’s Day as I often do and it reminds me of how resilient I am. This year was very different as we all know right now we are living in a very different world. This year my heart also felt heavy for all the new mums that didn’t get to celebrateContinue reading “I survived”
Mother’s Day
Mother’s day is coming and I know I won’t be the only person struggling on what is a seemingly happy occasion for most. I used to struggle because this November it is 6 years since my own mother passed away. I struggled because it is also very close to my birthday another difficult time ofContinue reading “Mother’s Day”
Statistically speaking…
Talking statistics around fertility When we fell pregnant I never expected that statistics and mathematics would play such a part in my life and subsequent grief. I hated maths in school and never thought it would affect my life or that I would require it that much as my career progressed. We are surrounded byContinue reading “Statistically speaking…”
What does grief looks like?
February 2019 A quick google of the grief process will often bring up the 5 stages! Denial and isolation, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. It seems so abstract to me that grief can be defined in just 5 stages even if professional sites reference that grief is a very personal process. If you look atContinue reading “What does grief looks like?”
Stars in the Sky 