Mother’s Day 🩵

I can’t quite believe how quickly it comes around! A day I find so difficult yet so honoured to mark. I feel heartbroken that I can’t celebrate this day with my own mother even nearly 10 years on. Nearly 10 years of grief! Time most definitely hasn’t healed but it has numbed the rawness andContinue reading “Mother’s Day 🩵”

Spring in my step

Spring had always been about new beginnings. Daffodils and bluebells starting to show up, little lambs springing in the fields. Spring has always been one of my most favourite times of the year. It resonates so much hope and new beginnings. Kora and Ava gave me another reason to be hopeful. We couldn’t believe theContinue reading “Spring in my step”

Footprints

We are going on holiday soon and I’m so excited to take some time off and have some real quality family time together. I feel so privileged to be able to build these moments and memories with Layla & Kayden. It really is what dreams are made of to look back in the sand andContinue reading “Footprints”

Quiet Days

Life can sometimes be so very busy with Layla and Kayden. Often I’m caught up in my own thoughts wondering whether I am doing a good job as mum. As they grow and develop everyday brings new challenges and most days feel like a blur or whirlwind of mayhem with our two little active hurricanes!Continue reading “Quiet Days”

Death Certificate

Another blogger that writes about baby loss awareness that I follow, posted about the fact that her babies death certificate shouldn’t be something she owns. I absolutely understand that this is definitely not the paperwork any parent would wish to own especially the process of going to a registry office to have it completed whilstContinue reading “Death Certificate”

Tears, patience, hope and love

I don’t know how!

I try to make my blog true to its origins of talking about pregnancy loss. I notice that the interaction is often a lot less when I talk about this. It is still very much a taboo subject. Raising awareness around this subject is still and probably even more important to me, now that IContinue reading “I don’t know how!”

How long do you have left?

Since being pregnant I have been self isolating due to the pandemic and it has been mainly winter weather time meaning I have been wrapped up and not so on display. So the bump has not been as obvious and of course it also took a while for it to blossom. In the last monthContinue reading “How long do you have left?”

Safety Manual and Guarantee

I don’t mind admitting that I have been having a few little breakdowns to close friends and a professional midwife. I am sure on the whole some of my anxiety is normal at this stage in pregnancy and with the realities of bringing them home being so close. However I know for a fact thatContinue reading “Safety Manual and Guarantee”

Blood and Tears

I am writing this blog from the hospital. I had to come here yesterday and stay the night. I had got out of the bath and while putting my nightie on and applying the bio oil, I felt something fall out of my vagina. To my horror there was blood on the carpet. In aContinue reading “Blood and Tears”