Neil and I know how blessed we are to be pregnant and we of course embarked on this knowing there was a pandemic. However we did this due to my age and because we had been trying long before Covid existed. There was also light at the end of the tunnel or so we allContinue reading “Pregnant in a pandemic”
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Pregnancy after loss
I am writing this blog as I feel that there is a lack of awareness about how difficult it is to be pregnant after loss(es). As humans we always like to hear good news stories and I have noticed that when I write about my current pregnancy I get lovely responses and support. However whenContinue reading “Pregnancy after loss”
Twenty weeks
It’s been a very long twenty weeks for us. Our pregnancy has been full of anxiety, scans and medical visits but we have made it to twenty weeks. At our very first scan at the IVF clinic they consultant told us about disappearing twin and stated it can happen up to twenty weeks. It wasContinue reading “Twenty weeks”
Anxiety 1 – us 0
A week ago we went for yet another reassurance scan. We were hoping we would make the four weeks till the 28th December but our new best friend anxiety took a hold again. I was coping ok initially and feeling confident that I could go the four weeks. Neil however wasn’t coping. I think menContinue reading “Anxiety 1 – us 0”
Failure
I had a medical assessment yesterday as social services require one because Neil and I are kinship foster carers. It involves answering questions about my general health and the doctor confirming any facts about my health and well being. I also have to undertake mobility, weight and height assessments. As part of the lengthy formContinue reading “Failure”
Irrational or rational?
If you are reading this blog then I kindly ask that you respect the fact that I am already a mother. I am a mother to angels, a step daughter and a foster daughter. I feel that I am a mother with years of experience from the age 12+ and a mother with the mostContinue reading “Irrational or rational?”
On the fence
We had another scan and this time the babies measured 14 weeks. This takes us back to the original dates we were given by the IVF clinic. We paid for this private scan as we were concerned about waiting till 16 weeks. We have also had lots of stress in relation to the house andContinue reading “On the fence”
Second Trimester
It has been a difficult week emotionally. I’m not sure if it’s my hormones at this stage or if it’s the fact the anniversary of my mum passing is fast approaching. I’m also very mindful that Kora and Ava passed in the second trimester. I don’t feel safe that we have reached the 13th week,Continue reading “Second Trimester”
A Pain Like No Other
I have been touched and saddened by the recent revelation from Chrissy Teigen and John Legend that they delivered their baby Jack sleeping. If you are unaware Chrissy Teigen posted photographs on Instagram which captured their delivery of their baby. When looking at the photos you can see the grief and heartache. It is rawContinue reading “A Pain Like No Other”
Twelve weeks
It’s official we have reached twelve weeks. Interestingly I don’t feel relieved or safe. I am too aware that we lost Kora and Ava in the second trimester and that there are no guarantees in a pregnancy. This past week has been very stressful due to external factors. I was so stressed it blocked allContinue reading “Twelve weeks”
Stars in the Sky 