Tuesday evening I was coming home from work and walked indoors at about 8:50pm. I was met by Neil holding Kayden. This is unusual as he is normally asleep then and both our babies are quite placid and only need comforting when something is needed. Neil was in the kitchen checking on our dinner, KaydenContinue reading “Tick box”
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I don’t know how!
I try to make my blog true to its origins of talking about pregnancy loss. I notice that the interaction is often a lot less when I talk about this. It is still very much a taboo subject. Raising awareness around this subject is still and probably even more important to me, now that IContinue reading “I don’t know how!”
Guilt vs exhaustion
I’m unsure if I’m exhausted or burdened due to guilt or maybe I’m exhausted because of the guilt and it’s burden that I feel everyday. I wasn’t sure whether to even write this blog due to the guilt that I feel when I think all of the thoughts in my own head before I evenContinue reading “Guilt vs exhaustion”
Precious Moments
I finished my last blog talking about the comment from strangers mainly who tell me how lucky we are in reference to having one of each. As you know this is a loaded statement for me as I know just how very lucky we are to have Kayden and Layla at home and in ourContinue reading “Precious Moments”
Safety Manual and Guarantee
I don’t mind admitting that I have been having a few little breakdowns to close friends and a professional midwife. I am sure on the whole some of my anxiety is normal at this stage in pregnancy and with the realities of bringing them home being so close. However I know for a fact thatContinue reading “Safety Manual and Guarantee”
Third Trimester
I recently heard an analogy regarding the third trimester and it resonated with me. I want to take you back to the Brownlee Brothers running the marathon, I think we all remember that image of one brother carrying the other across the finish line. Third trimester feels very similar to me. I have the finishContinue reading “Third Trimester”
Pregnancy after loss
I am writing this blog as I feel that there is a lack of awareness about how difficult it is to be pregnant after loss(es). As humans we always like to hear good news stories and I have noticed that when I write about my current pregnancy I get lovely responses and support. However whenContinue reading “Pregnancy after loss”
Failure
I had a medical assessment yesterday as social services require one because Neil and I are kinship foster carers. It involves answering questions about my general health and the doctor confirming any facts about my health and well being. I also have to undertake mobility, weight and height assessments. As part of the lengthy formContinue reading “Failure”
Irrational or rational?
If you are reading this blog then I kindly ask that you respect the fact that I am already a mother. I am a mother to angels, a step daughter and a foster daughter. I feel that I am a mother with years of experience from the age 12+ and a mother with the mostContinue reading “Irrational or rational?”
A Pain Like No Other
I have been touched and saddened by the recent revelation from Chrissy Teigen and John Legend that they delivered their baby Jack sleeping. If you are unaware Chrissy Teigen posted photographs on Instagram which captured their delivery of their baby. When looking at the photos you can see the grief and heartache. It is rawContinue reading “A Pain Like No Other”
Stars in the Sky 