I have asked Neil to write something for this blog so I could show a mans perspective around pregnancy loss, IVF and trying to conceive. However he is not very forthcoming with the goods! Believe it or not he is actually very good at expressing his feeling when he puts pen to paper. He wroteContinue reading “In his head”
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Transfer
I often wonder if I should share as much as I have done online for anyone to access. I worry that my life is readily available for anyone to read about. Then I remind myself that it is only a part of my life I am sharing and the reason I do is to helpContinue reading “Transfer”
Bruised
It’s the day before transfer and somehow we have made it this far. My belly is bruised, my anxiety has been through the roof and my need to be supported has not gone to plan. I keep telling myself that Neil and I have no control over what is going to happen but the truthContinue reading “Bruised”
Doubts
I asked Neil to stop the medication and injections the morning after the two year anniversary of delivering Kora and Ava. We hadn’t dealt with the anniversary well and our emotions got the better of us. We had put so much in place to try and have a “nice” time over the anniversary not justContinue reading “Doubts”
No Sex
Ironic isn’t it! We are trying again for babies/baby and we are told at certain points through IVF treatment not to have sex. When you are trying to conceive naturally for some it’s all about base line temperatures, ovulation dates and tests and of course regular sex. Neil and I, although aware of when IContinue reading “No Sex”
Human
Grieving whilst on hormone drugs and planning for the future is very difficult and conflicting. Yesterday (9th August) was two years since Neil and I went for another scan and were told that Kora and Ava had no heartbeats. Since then we have lost many more babies and this seems to have added to myContinue reading “Human”
Side Effects!
We have now been injecting buserelin for two weeks. The first round of IVF I had some side effects on this injection, mainly mood swings and hot flushes. I went into this round believing I knew what to expect and how to prepare for the hormonal changes. A kind of been there got the t-shirtContinue reading “Side Effects!”
A Letter To Heaven,
Mum, It’s been nearly six years since you passed away. In some ways it has seemed so much longer and in other ways I’m not sure where that time has gone. In the time you have passed I have married the most wonderful man that I wish you had met. You would love him onContinue reading “A Letter To Heaven,”
The tears aren’t falling.
Next month it will be two whole years since we were told our first babies, Kora and Ava (identical twins) had no heartbeats. It will be two years since I went into labour and delivered them in a silent room with no cries from them as they entered the world but the raw sobs fromContinue reading “The tears aren’t falling.”
Round Two – again!
Neil and I have started our IVF round two again this month. I say again as we have tried to start round two in January 2020 and March 2020. The first time was cancelled as we found out the first round of IVF had resulted in a twin pregnancy where we miscarried one and theContinue reading “Round Two – again!”
Stars in the Sky 