Against all odds

My sense of smell was heightened. I was retching at the dog poo bin. My appetite was decreased but when I was hungry I felt sick. All the signs of my previous pregnancies! My menstrual cycle wasn’t due for another 2 days but I went to the toilet that evening as I had enough ofContinue reading “Against all odds”

Disappearing hope!

How often are you looking at the time? It’s strange that we have been forced into a situation where we stay in and often have little to do or struggle to get through the demands of the day. I think I have looked at my watch more times then ever before! I fall in theContinue reading “Disappearing hope!”

Bitter sweet

We should have been given a scan photo today of our embryos implanted safely. We should have come out and rested, wishing and hoping for the embryos to stick! Wishing that this time they would stick in the right places! We should have been filled with hope today. Embarking on our two week wait againContinue reading “Bitter sweet”

Challenge accepted…

Ultimately I know that most people in the world don’t post anything on social media with malicious intent but rather to support each other or raise confidence especially at present with the pandemic. I admit it’s a very beautiful thing to do for each other. However my heart breaks a little more when I seeContinue reading “Challenge accepted…”

Reflection in the mirror

When I got pregnant naturally the first time I was a healthy weight. I have always been the kind of woman who is harsh on herself. I think most of us are. You never see what others see in you and we are our own worst critic. I have since fallen pregnant naturally again aContinue reading “Reflection in the mirror”

A letter to my embryos

To my embryos, I’m sorry the four of you are sat in the freezer for the foreseeable future. It’s a crazy world here at the moment as a virus called Covid-19 (Coronavirus) is making people ill and lots are dying. We are at present in a National Emergency state and our Prime Minister has askedContinue reading “A letter to my embryos”

Selfishly heartbroken

This a stream of consciousness blog where I have not sat down and thought for hours what I want to say or indeed how I should put it. I’m going to be honest and hope that it doesn’t come across as bitter because I don’t believe I am that person but I’m aware it couldContinue reading “Selfishly heartbroken”

Mother’s Day

Mother’s day is coming and I know I won’t be the only person struggling on what is a seemingly happy occasion for most. I used to struggle because this November it is 6 years since my own mother passed away. I struggled because it is also very close to my birthday another difficult time ofContinue reading “Mother’s Day”

The truth about IVF…

It’s a wonderful thing is IVF. Giving people like me the best opportunity to fall pregnant. What people don’t know is just how tough it can be. For me and my husband it’s the waiting! Not only the waiting that you have in relation to the IVF but also the waiting when your body hasContinue reading “The truth about IVF…”