It’s the day before transfer and somehow we have made it this far. My belly is bruised, my anxiety has been through the roof and my need to be supported has not gone to plan. I keep telling myself that Neil and I have no control over what is going to happen but the truthContinue reading “Bruised”
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The tears aren’t falling.
Next month it will be two whole years since we were told our first babies, Kora and Ava (identical twins) had no heartbeats. It will be two years since I went into labour and delivered them in a silent room with no cries from them as they entered the world but the raw sobs fromContinue reading “The tears aren’t falling.”
A Mother’s Cry
A beautiful woman I know of wrote the other day about a mother’s cry. It was the cry of a mother whose child had died. She described it as a raw sound like nothing she had ever heard before. My thoughts went to my auntie and how she described her cries and screams when theContinue reading “A Mother’s Cry”
Are you ok?
A very British question that is often asked frequently and as part of our everyday general conversation and greetings. It is a question that has always bothered me particularly with our British culture of having a stiff upper lip (showing fortitude and stoicism in the face of adversity, or exercising great self-restraint in the expressionContinue reading “Are you ok?”
Again we wait…
Pregnant 2-3 weeks! This is the result we normally want to see on the test. The amount of times I have peed on a stick and we have waited with baited breath to see the result. What many don’t realise is that when you miscarry or have a pregnancy loss, it takes time for theContinue reading “Again we wait…”
Will you still walk with me?
It is very hard for anyone to truly walk in someone else’s shoes. A distant friend of mine contacted me this week to share her experience and thank me for finding the strength to write mine down. It touched me deeply and got me thinking. Our experiences are very different and I will never fullyContinue reading “Will you still walk with me?”
A Different Kind of Mother
What image do you conjure up when you think of a Mother? Is she radiant? Does she have an apron on with children sat in high chairs? Is she worn out and not looking her best? Do you think of a Mother who doesn’t have any living biological children? I believe I became a MotherContinue reading “A Different Kind of Mother”
Obsessive Mummy
We all know the ones right? The ones that from the moment they fall pregnant they bombard us with every tiny detail, be it in person or via social media. You know the scan pictures, the bump at this week, the baby just kicked, morning sickness, tiredness and then the baby arrives!!! It becomes constantContinue reading “Obsessive Mummy”
A letter to my embryos
To my embryos, I’m sorry the four of you are sat in the freezer for the foreseeable future. It’s a crazy world here at the moment as a virus called Covid-19 (Coronavirus) is making people ill and lots are dying. We are at present in a National Emergency state and our Prime Minister has askedContinue reading “A letter to my embryos”
BFP (Big Fat Positive)
To all my IVF and fertility warrior friends…here’s to the TWW (two week wait) and your BFP. Neil and I were truly blessed to conceive with Kora and Ava naturally and within the first month. We thought as we had conceived so quickly we wouldn’t have any problems TTC (trying to conceive) again. Losing aContinue reading “BFP (Big Fat Positive)”
Stars in the Sky 