I’m not sure if my fears and anxieties are similar to any other parent or if they are more extreme from our loses before Layla and Kayden. I remember when they were first born and we brought them home the health visitor completed a questionnaire around anxiety and I was off the scale. She recommendedContinue reading “Fear”
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Mother’s Day 🩵
I can’t quite believe how quickly it comes around! A day I find so difficult yet so honoured to mark. I feel heartbroken that I can’t celebrate this day with my own mother even nearly 10 years on. Nearly 10 years of grief! Time most definitely hasn’t healed but it has numbed the rawness andContinue reading “Mother’s Day 🩵”
Merry & Bright
There are always times of the year that are harder than others. Christmas is one of those times. It’s impacted by the fact it’s the due date of Kora and Ava (20th December). It’s such a magical time of year but along with bringing joy it can bring so much sadness too! It’s hard toContinue reading “Merry & Bright”
Footprints
We are going on holiday soon and I’m so excited to take some time off and have some real quality family time together. I feel so privileged to be able to build these moments and memories with Layla & Kayden. It really is what dreams are made of to look back in the sand andContinue reading “Footprints”
Quiet Days
Life can sometimes be so very busy with Layla and Kayden. Often I’m caught up in my own thoughts wondering whether I am doing a good job as mum. As they grow and develop everyday brings new challenges and most days feel like a blur or whirlwind of mayhem with our two little active hurricanes!Continue reading “Quiet Days”
Comparison
Sometimes I feel like a lost child who still needs her mum and dad. I’m not sure if these feelings are valid and acceptable as an adult and a parent myself. I’m not sure if it is because it’s approaching my own mums birthday and the milestone of seventy years old. It seems so unrealContinue reading “Comparison”
One year!
I can’t quite believe we have had a whole year of loving you upon your arrival! People often say it goes so fast and in so many ways it does! You will always be our babies but at the moment you are most definitely our little people. It has been an absolute pleasure to watchContinue reading “One year!”
Another Mother’s Day
This is the time of year I find difficult. I have said this on many occasions. It’s my birthday month and I always miss my own mum around that time but it is usually Mother’s Day quite soon after my birthday. It’s a day I can never let go unmarked in my blog. It’s theContinue reading “Another Mother’s Day”
Death Certificate
Another blogger that writes about baby loss awareness that I follow, posted about the fact that her babies death certificate shouldn’t be something she owns. I absolutely understand that this is definitely not the paperwork any parent would wish to own especially the process of going to a registry office to have it completed whilstContinue reading “Death Certificate”
3 Years Old
I can’t quite believe that I am sat here typing this on what would have been your third birthdays. I’m not sure how those three years have passed. I know that because of you both, you made me stronger and showed me a love I never understood before you. In those three years I startedContinue reading “3 Years Old”
Stars in the Sky 