After our first Christmas when we enter the dark days and nights of January and life becomes a little less hectic, there is time to reflect. Christmas didn’t go as I had imagined in my head and wasn’t as special as I had anticipated due to numerous reasons. However there were still some magical momentsContinue reading “Overwhelming Emotions”
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3 Years Old
I can’t quite believe that I am sat here typing this on what would have been your third birthdays. I’m not sure how those three years have passed. I know that because of you both, you made me stronger and showed me a love I never understood before you. In those three years I startedContinue reading “3 Years Old”
A letter to Layla & Kayden
Dear Layla and Kayden, Since you came into our lives, I have often thought of the impact my grief has on your lives. One of the biggest concerns I often think about is what you would think if you read my blogs in your future. I know that as a mother myself I have neverContinue reading “A letter to Layla & Kayden”
DNA
A friend visited our home the other day and whilst looking at Kayden she said how much he looked like Neil and asked jokingly if there was any of my DNA in him. She then went onto say that I just housed him for 9 months. Firstly I would like to state that this friendContinue reading “DNA”
Tears, patience, hope and love
Mummy struggles
The twins were 5 months old yesterday. I can’t quite believe that time has passed already. That’s roughly 152 days! Of which I would say I have absolutely enjoyed and fully appreciated 150 of those days! I think most Mums or Dads would feel guilty for saying that and I am really hard on myselfContinue reading “Mummy struggles”
Tick box
Tuesday evening I was coming home from work and walked indoors at about 8:50pm. I was met by Neil holding Kayden. This is unusual as he is normally asleep then and both our babies are quite placid and only need comforting when something is needed. Neil was in the kitchen checking on our dinner, KaydenContinue reading “Tick box”
Abstract
I spend the majority of my time with the twins even when I’m working they are at home with me. I believe in the 18 weeks of their lives I have had less than 50 hours away from them. Some of the reason for this is because I put pressure on myself to be theContinue reading “Abstract”
I don’t know how!
I try to make my blog true to its origins of talking about pregnancy loss. I notice that the interaction is often a lot less when I talk about this. It is still very much a taboo subject. Raising awareness around this subject is still and probably even more important to me, now that IContinue reading “I don’t know how!”
Enjoy it while you can…
They grow up everyone says. Since walking about with the pram I have been stopped on many occasions especially if people look in and spot two babies in the one carrier. I find it interesting what people say to me. normally the first question I get is “are they twins”? I wonder if it’s theContinue reading “Enjoy it while you can…”
Stars in the Sky 