Mother’s Day

Mother’s Day 🩵

I can’t quite believe how quickly it comes around! A day I find so difficult yet so honoured to mark. I feel heartbroken that I can’t celebrate this day with my own mother even nearly 10 years on. Nearly 10 years of grief! Time most definitely hasn’t healed but it has numbed the rawness andContinue reading “Mother’s Day 🩵”

Mothering Sunday

It’s that time of year again when Mother’s Day is fast approaching! A day that I have often found challenging for one reason or another. When my own mum passed away it was a day I struggled with because my love for her never died but the joy of celebrating that day did! I wasContinue reading “Mothering Sunday”

Another Mother’s Day

This is the time of year I find difficult. I have said this on many occasions. It’s my birthday month and I always miss my own mum around that time but it is usually Mother’s Day quite soon after my birthday. It’s a day I can never let go unmarked in my blog. It’s theContinue reading “Another Mother’s Day”

Abstract

I spend the majority of my time with the twins even when I’m working they are at home with me. I believe in the 18 weeks of their lives I have had less than 50 hours away from them. Some of the reason for this is because I put pressure on myself to be theContinue reading “Abstract”

I don’t know how to live in your world.

I know from various online and face to face groups that what I am feeling is ‘normal’. Today I am struggling. I don’t know if it’s me and my expectations. I don’t know if I’m too sensitive. I don’t know if it’s just grief. Today my tears just keep coming. I don’t know if it’sContinue reading “I don’t know how to live in your world.”

I survived

I made it through Mother’s Day as I often do and it reminds me of how resilient I am. This year was very different as we all know right now we are living in a very different world. This year my heart also felt heavy for all the new mums that didn’t get to celebrateContinue reading “I survived”

Mother’s day is coming and I know I won’t be the only person struggling on what is a seemingly happy occasion for most. I used to struggle because this November it is 6 years since my own mother passed away. I struggled because it is also very close to my birthday another difficult time ofContinue reading “Mother’s Day”