Another Mother’s Day

This is the time of year I find difficult. I have said this on many occasions. It’s my birthday month and I always miss my own mum around that time but it is usually Mother’s Day quite soon after my birthday. It’s a day I can never let go unmarked in my blog. It’s theContinue reading “Another Mother’s Day”

Overwhelming Emotions

After our first Christmas when we enter the dark days and nights of January and life becomes a little less hectic, there is time to reflect. Christmas didn’t go as I had imagined in my head and wasn’t as special as I had anticipated due to numerous reasons. However there were still some magical momentsContinue reading “Overwhelming Emotions”

A letter to Layla & Kayden

Dear Layla and Kayden, Since you came into our lives, I have often thought of the impact my grief has on your lives. One of the biggest concerns I often think about is what you would think if you read my blogs in your future. I know that as a mother myself I have neverContinue reading “A letter to Layla & Kayden”

No need to try again!

I have often written about throw away comments made by not only friends and family but also strangers. Often these comments are human nature in our need to communicate with each other. They are said with no thought and are a comment meant with no harm. Interestingly when I walk around with the twins inContinue reading “No need to try again!”

The season to be jolly

It is the most magical time of year and the season to be jolly, at least that’s what we all anticipate at Christmas time. The truth is that it is far from that for many and for very different reasons. This year for Neil and I, it is truly magical and jolly to be celebratingContinue reading “The season to be jolly”

Abstract

I spend the majority of my time with the twins even when I’m working they are at home with me. I believe in the 18 weeks of their lives I have had less than 50 hours away from them. Some of the reason for this is because I put pressure on myself to be theContinue reading “Abstract”

Safety Manual and Guarantee

I don’t mind admitting that I have been having a few little breakdowns to close friends and a professional midwife. I am sure on the whole some of my anxiety is normal at this stage in pregnancy and with the realities of bringing them home being so close. However I know for a fact thatContinue reading “Safety Manual and Guarantee”

Nesting

It’s an expression banded around especially when a pregnancy is talked about. It’s not just the human race that undertake it either. It’s the natural instinct to make your home organised and ready for the arrival. I have the urge to make the house ready and more prepared for the arrival of the twins yetContinue reading “Nesting”