After our first Christmas when we enter the dark days and nights of January and life becomes a little less hectic, there is time to reflect. Christmas didn’t go as I had imagined in my head and wasn’t as special as I had anticipated due to numerous reasons. However there were still some magical momentsContinue reading “Overwhelming Emotions”
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3 Years Old
I can’t quite believe that I am sat here typing this on what would have been your third birthdays. I’m not sure how those three years have passed. I know that because of you both, you made me stronger and showed me a love I never understood before you. In those three years I startedContinue reading “3 Years Old”
A letter to Layla & Kayden
Dear Layla and Kayden, Since you came into our lives, I have often thought of the impact my grief has on your lives. One of the biggest concerns I often think about is what you would think if you read my blogs in your future. I know that as a mother myself I have neverContinue reading “A letter to Layla & Kayden”
Mixed emotions
Someone I know has recently had MCMA identical twin girls. I am genuinely happy for her and her partner for getting through the whole pregnancy and bringing home their bundle of joys. It became apparent that the hospital’s protocol and procedures has changed around MCMA twins (shortly after our pregnancy) and her treatment was differentContinue reading “Mixed emotions”
Grandma
I know lots of people struggle around this time of year for one thing or another and particularly as the nights draw darker and colder. I use to love this time of year and found joy in wrapping up warm and cozy fires. If I’m honest a part of me still does. I refuse toContinue reading “Grandma”
No need to try again!
I have often written about throw away comments made by not only friends and family but also strangers. Often these comments are human nature in our need to communicate with each other. They are said with no thought and are a comment meant with no harm. Interestingly when I walk around with the twins inContinue reading “No need to try again!”
DNA
A friend visited our home the other day and whilst looking at Kayden she said how much he looked like Neil and asked jokingly if there was any of my DNA in him. She then went onto say that I just housed him for 9 months. Firstly I would like to state that this friendContinue reading “DNA”
The season to be jolly
It is the most magical time of year and the season to be jolly, at least that’s what we all anticipate at Christmas time. The truth is that it is far from that for many and for very different reasons. This year for Neil and I, it is truly magical and jolly to be celebratingContinue reading “The season to be jolly”
Tears, patience, hope and love
Mummy struggles
The twins were 5 months old yesterday. I can’t quite believe that time has passed already. That’s roughly 152 days! Of which I would say I have absolutely enjoyed and fully appreciated 150 of those days! I think most Mums or Dads would feel guilty for saying that and I am really hard on myselfContinue reading “Mummy struggles”
Stars in the Sky 