Baby Loss Awareness

Grief has no timescale. If you are blessed enough to have gone through life without being affected by the loss of a loved one then hold onto that dearly. However the reality is that most of us have experienced the loss of a loved one. This November it is 6 years since my mum passedContinue reading “Baby Loss Awareness”

A Prison Sentence

I was talking to a very good friend on the phone the other day and he referred to my pregnancy as a prison sentence. I laughed as I knew what he meant. He said he feels like he is actually marking off the days on the wall. Of course most people would not refer toContinue reading “A Prison Sentence”

Self preservation.

I’m already madly in love with both of the babies that are growing inside me. This frightens me as I know how hard the potential fall can be! Im definitely not enjoying the pregnancy but my self preservation is slipping as each day passes. My hope grows as much as my love! I have neverContinue reading “Self preservation.”

Two blueberries!

We are seven weeks pregnant today and our babies should be the size of a blueberry. It’s a strange concept because we are in fact seven weeks but how do we know that they are still growing? The anxiety is horrendous. It’s all well and good for people to remind us to relax and notContinue reading “Two blueberries!”

We are scared!

We had our 6 week scan which we mentioned and stated that we were not to worry if we didn’t see any heartbeats. This is because you can see them potentially from 6 weeks however sometimes you can’t see them till a little later. We are pleased to say that on exactly 6 weeks weContinue reading “We are scared!”

A moment in my head

It has to be a moment in my head as too much longer you would all want to abandon ship especially during the two week wait. We have all probably thought at some point that we are glad that no one can see into our head as thoughts run wild so I’m going to beContinue reading “A moment in my head”

In his head

I have asked Neil to write something for this blog so I could show a mans perspective around pregnancy loss, IVF and trying to conceive. However he is not very forthcoming with the goods! Believe it or not he is actually very good at expressing his feeling when he puts pen to paper. He wroteContinue reading “In his head”

Transfer

I often wonder if I should share as much as I have done online for anyone to access. I worry that my life is readily available for anyone to read about. Then I remind myself that it is only a part of my life I am sharing and the reason I do is to helpContinue reading “Transfer”

Bruised

It’s the day before transfer and somehow we have made it this far. My belly is bruised, my anxiety has been through the roof and my need to be supported has not gone to plan. I keep telling myself that Neil and I have no control over what is going to happen but the truthContinue reading “Bruised”

No Sex

Ironic isn’t it! We are trying again for babies/baby and we are told at certain points through IVF treatment not to have sex. When you are trying to conceive naturally for some it’s all about base line temperatures, ovulation dates and tests and of course regular sex. Neil and I, although aware of when IContinue reading “No Sex”