Grieving whilst on hormone drugs and planning for the future is very difficult and conflicting. Yesterday (9th August) was two years since Neil and I went for another scan and were told that Kora and Ava had no heartbeats. Since then we have lost many more babies and this seems to have added to myContinue reading “Human”
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Side Effects!
We have now been injecting buserelin for two weeks. The first round of IVF I had some side effects on this injection, mainly mood swings and hot flushes. I went into this round believing I knew what to expect and how to prepare for the hormonal changes. A kind of been there got the t-shirtContinue reading “Side Effects!”
A Letter To Heaven,
Mum, It’s been nearly six years since you passed away. In some ways it has seemed so much longer and in other ways I’m not sure where that time has gone. In the time you have passed I have married the most wonderful man that I wish you had met. You would love him onContinue reading “A Letter To Heaven,”
The tears aren’t falling.
Next month it will be two whole years since we were told our first babies, Kora and Ava (identical twins) had no heartbeats. It will be two years since I went into labour and delivered them in a silent room with no cries from them as they entered the world but the raw sobs fromContinue reading “The tears aren’t falling.”
Round Two – again!
Neil and I have started our IVF round two again this month. I say again as we have tried to start round two in January 2020 and March 2020. The first time was cancelled as we found out the first round of IVF had resulted in a twin pregnancy where we miscarried one and theContinue reading “Round Two – again!”
The Right Support
As a self reflective woman, step and foster mum I strive to make sure my well being is cared for. I actively seek the support that I feel I might need to ensure that my emotions and state of mind do not affect those closet to me. It’s very difficult to know when my moodContinue reading “The Right Support”
Love, Laughter, Tears and Heartbreak.
Day 1 (or not)
Couples who embark on IVF know exactly what is meant by day 1. It usually signifies the start of your menstrual cycle and the start of a round of IVF. Following Neil’s and my miscarriage we have been waiting for Day 1 so we could start our IVF round. On Sunday we believed that ourContinue reading “Day 1 (or not)”
A Mother’s Cry
A beautiful woman I know of wrote the other day about a mother’s cry. It was the cry of a mother whose child had died. She described it as a raw sound like nothing she had ever heard before. My thoughts went to my auntie and how she described her cries and screams when theContinue reading “A Mother’s Cry”
Like waiting for a bus!
We’ve all been there, stood at a bus stop waiting for what feels like an eternity for a bus. I’ve found our fertility journey very much like waiting for the bus. I’ve mentioned in previous posts that the waiting is what can be so difficult especially when you have no control over it. Unlike waitingContinue reading “Like waiting for a bus!”
Stars in the Sky 