Tuesday evening I was coming home from work and walked indoors at about 8:50pm. I was met by Neil holding Kayden. This is unusual as he is normally asleep then and both our babies are quite placid and only need comforting when something is needed. Neil was in the kitchen checking on our dinner, KaydenContinue reading “Tick box”
Tag Archives: self worth
Abstract
I spend the majority of my time with the twins even when I’m working they are at home with me. I believe in the 18 weeks of their lives I have had less than 50 hours away from them. Some of the reason for this is because I put pressure on myself to be theContinue reading “Abstract”
Guilt vs exhaustion
I’m unsure if I’m exhausted or burdened due to guilt or maybe I’m exhausted because of the guilt and it’s burden that I feel everyday. I wasn’t sure whether to even write this blog due to the guilt that I feel when I think all of the thoughts in my own head before I evenContinue reading “Guilt vs exhaustion”
Precious Moments
I finished my last blog talking about the comment from strangers mainly who tell me how lucky we are in reference to having one of each. As you know this is a loaded statement for me as I know just how very lucky we are to have Kayden and Layla at home and in ourContinue reading “Precious Moments”
The Right Support
As a self reflective woman, step and foster mum I strive to make sure my well being is cared for. I actively seek the support that I feel I might need to ensure that my emotions and state of mind do not affect those closet to me. It’s very difficult to know when my moodContinue reading “The Right Support”
Love, Laughter, Tears and Heartbreak.
A Mother’s Cry
A beautiful woman I know of wrote the other day about a mother’s cry. It was the cry of a mother whose child had died. She described it as a raw sound like nothing she had ever heard before. My thoughts went to my auntie and how she described her cries and screams when theContinue reading “A Mother’s Cry”
Are you ok?
A very British question that is often asked frequently and as part of our everyday general conversation and greetings. It is a question that has always bothered me particularly with our British culture of having a stiff upper lip (showing fortitude and stoicism in the face of adversity, or exercising great self-restraint in the expressionContinue reading “Are you ok?”
Will you still walk with me?
It is very hard for anyone to truly walk in someone else’s shoes. A distant friend of mine contacted me this week to share her experience and thank me for finding the strength to write mine down. It touched me deeply and got me thinking. Our experiences are very different and I will never fullyContinue reading “Will you still walk with me?”
Bitter pill continued…
On Saturday I ended up back at the hospital on my own. The medical management of our miscarriage appeared not to have worked. I had been struggling the days before with people who contacted me with kindness and well intentioned messages or meanings. However sometimes people say or suggest something without truly understanding the situationContinue reading “Bitter pill continued…”
Stars in the Sky 