Being a mum brings so many challenges that I never anticipated. I have not had a problem with being selfless and giving everything to my family but I do constantly struggle with my worth and value. I have always struggled with this for many years in all areas whether it’s personal or professional. I trainedContinue reading “Imposter”
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Crawling under the duvet
One day last week I had been awake with the twins for about an hour before it was all too much and I literally removed myself by going upstairs and crawling under the duvet. Just before this I had failed miserably as a good mum and had screamed at the twins whilst stating I wantedContinue reading “Crawling under the duvet”
Guilt vs exhaustion
I’m unsure if I’m exhausted or burdened due to guilt or maybe I’m exhausted because of the guilt and it’s burden that I feel everyday. I wasn’t sure whether to even write this blog due to the guilt that I feel when I think all of the thoughts in my own head before I evenContinue reading “Guilt vs exhaustion”
Baby Loss Awareness
Grief has no timescale. If you are blessed enough to have gone through life without being affected by the loss of a loved one then hold onto that dearly. However the reality is that most of us have experienced the loss of a loved one. This November it is 6 years since my mum passedContinue reading “Baby Loss Awareness”
Doubts
I asked Neil to stop the medication and injections the morning after the two year anniversary of delivering Kora and Ava. We hadn’t dealt with the anniversary well and our emotions got the better of us. We had put so much in place to try and have a “nice” time over the anniversary not justContinue reading “Doubts”
Round Two – again!
Neil and I have started our IVF round two again this month. I say again as we have tried to start round two in January 2020 and March 2020. The first time was cancelled as we found out the first round of IVF had resulted in a twin pregnancy where we miscarried one and theContinue reading “Round Two – again!”
A bitter pill to swallow
It’s 4am in the morning and I had been laying awake in bed with sudden overwhelming bursts of grief and tears. I’m going into hospital today to take a pill to end our pregnancy. We had an 8 week scan yesterday and it showed our fears that the baby’s heart had stopped. We had onlyContinue reading “A bitter pill to swallow”
Stars in the Sky 