Tag Archives: still birth

Dare to Dream

We had another scan yesterday. We will be 10 weeks pregnant this Friday. For us this time has moved so slowly and has been filled with anxiety. I was left feeling very emotional and couldn’t stop crying for hours. I had built my anxiety level to such a heightened state with fear that the IVFContinue reading “Dare to Dream”

Baby Loss Awareness

Grief has no timescale. If you are blessed enough to have gone through life without being affected by the loss of a loved one then hold onto that dearly. However the reality is that most of us have experienced the loss of a loved one. This November it is 6 years since my mum passedContinue reading “Baby Loss Awareness”

No Sex

Ironic isn’t it! We are trying again for babies/baby and we are told at certain points through IVF treatment not to have sex. When you are trying to conceive naturally for some it’s all about base line temperatures, ovulation dates and tests and of course regular sex. Neil and I, although aware of when IContinue reading “No Sex”

Again we wait…

Pregnant 2-3 weeks! This is the result we normally want to see on the test. The amount of times I have peed on a stick and we have waited with baited breath to see the result. What many don’t realise is that when you miscarry or have a pregnancy loss, it takes time for theContinue reading “Again we wait…”

The voice in my head.

I have never been an anxious person on the whole. I have the same small anxieties and worries as others but I would say I’m not a overly anxious person. That was until we lost our children. As a sign language interpreter for the Deaf, I was given a sign name (a sign to useContinue reading “The voice in my head.”

I don’t know how to live in your world.

I know from various online and face to face groups that what I am feeling is ‘normal’. Today I am struggling. I don’t know if it’s me and my expectations. I don’t know if I’m too sensitive. I don’t know if it’s just grief. Today my tears just keep coming. I don’t know if it’sContinue reading “I don’t know how to live in your world.”