I’m not sure if my fears and anxieties are similar to any other parent or if they are more extreme from our loses before Layla and Kayden. I remember when they were first born and we brought them home the health visitor completed a questionnaire around anxiety and I was off the scale. She recommendedContinue reading “Fear”
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Imposter
Being a mum brings so many challenges that I never anticipated. I have not had a problem with being selfless and giving everything to my family but I do constantly struggle with my worth and value. I have always struggled with this for many years in all areas whether it’s personal or professional. I trainedContinue reading “Imposter”
Crawling under the duvet
One day last week I had been awake with the twins for about an hour before it was all too much and I literally removed myself by going upstairs and crawling under the duvet. Just before this I had failed miserably as a good mum and had screamed at the twins whilst stating I wantedContinue reading “Crawling under the duvet”
Time heals all wounds
Wednesday it is five years to the day that we were told your heart beats had stopped! I can’t quite believe it’s been five years! Sometimes it feels as raw today as it did that day and other days my mind doesn’t recall so much. I always I remember that Neil and I had attendedContinue reading “Time heals all wounds”
Spring in my step
Spring had always been about new beginnings. Daffodils and bluebells starting to show up, little lambs springing in the fields. Spring has always been one of my most favourite times of the year. It resonates so much hope and new beginnings. Kora and Ava gave me another reason to be hopeful. We couldn’t believe theContinue reading “Spring in my step”
Footprints
We are going on holiday soon and I’m so excited to take some time off and have some real quality family time together. I feel so privileged to be able to build these moments and memories with Layla & Kayden. It really is what dreams are made of to look back in the sand andContinue reading “Footprints”
Comparison
Sometimes I feel like a lost child who still needs her mum and dad. I’m not sure if these feelings are valid and acceptable as an adult and a parent myself. I’m not sure if it is because it’s approaching my own mums birthday and the milestone of seventy years old. It seems so unrealContinue reading “Comparison”
Bad mum!
No matter whether you are a biological, non biological or bereaved mum, we all have those times and days when we feel like a bad mum. I know dads feel like this too but I am writing from my own perspective so will be talking as mum. Sometimes we can’t do right for doing wrongContinue reading “Bad mum!”
One year!
I can’t quite believe we have had a whole year of loving you upon your arrival! People often say it goes so fast and in so many ways it does! You will always be our babies but at the moment you are most definitely our little people. It has been an absolute pleasure to watchContinue reading “One year!”
Are they good babies?
It’s another question that I have been asked on so many occasions since bringing the twins home. Are they good babies? I am assuming the person asking is referring to how the babies are sleeping, whether they cry much or fuss about everything. Basically are they easy babies? I have never felt comfortable with thisContinue reading “Are they good babies?”
Stars in the Sky 