Wednesday it is five years to the day that we were told your heart beats had stopped! I can’t quite believe it’s been five years! Sometimes it feels as raw today as it did that day and other days my mind doesn’t recall so much. I always I remember that Neil and I had attendedContinue reading “Time heals all wounds”
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Saddened and Maddened
In the news this week they reported about Britney Spears (famous singer) who at 40 has lost her baby. The press printed Britney’s personal tweet on Twitter where she states that maybe they shouldn’t have announced the pregnancy as early as they did but they got carried away with the excitement. I am desperately saddenedContinue reading “Saddened and Maddened”
Bad mum!
No matter whether you are a biological, non biological or bereaved mum, we all have those times and days when we feel like a bad mum. I know dads feel like this too but I am writing from my own perspective so will be talking as mum. Sometimes we can’t do right for doing wrongContinue reading “Bad mum!”
3 Years Old
I can’t quite believe that I am sat here typing this on what would have been your third birthdays. I’m not sure how those three years have passed. I know that because of you both, you made me stronger and showed me a love I never understood before you. In those three years I startedContinue reading “3 Years Old”
Grandma
I know lots of people struggle around this time of year for one thing or another and particularly as the nights draw darker and colder. I use to love this time of year and found joy in wrapping up warm and cozy fires. If I’m honest a part of me still does. I refuse toContinue reading “Grandma”
Tears, patience, hope and love
Abstract
I spend the majority of my time with the twins even when I’m working they are at home with me. I believe in the 18 weeks of their lives I have had less than 50 hours away from them. Some of the reason for this is because I put pressure on myself to be theContinue reading “Abstract”
The phone call
Two weeks ago I took Kayden to his hospital appointment. It was a check up in relation to his jitters/movements. On the very first appointment they had taken his bloods and wrote to us to say his neutrophils were low but that is normal in babies aged 5-8 weeks. He was 6 weeks old atContinue reading “The phone call”
Rookie mistake
A rookie mistake (a basic mistake that a person with no experience might make). I have often written about the fact that I have been a mother for many years however being a mum to babies is new to me. It’s terrifying that I am making mistakes on these precious twins. It’s devastating that IContinue reading “Rookie mistake”
Enjoy it while you can…
They grow up everyone says. Since walking about with the pram I have been stopped on many occasions especially if people look in and spot two babies in the one carrier. I find it interesting what people say to me. normally the first question I get is “are they twins”? I wonder if it’s theContinue reading “Enjoy it while you can…”
Stars in the Sky 