Being a mum brings so many challenges that I never anticipated. I have not had a problem with being selfless and giving everything to my family but I do constantly struggle with my worth and value. I have always struggled with this for many years in all areas whether it’s personal or professional. I trainedContinue reading “Imposter”
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We waited so long!
The journey Neil and I endured before we got to bring you home was heartbreaking, grief stricken and at times to devastating for words! Layla & Kayden were our 5th pregnancy! They were the ones we got to bring home and finally proudly being able to put up that photo of their dadda holding themContinue reading “We waited so long!”
What might have been…
Most of you know what Neil and I went through to bring Layla and Kayden home. You are aware of our losses, miscarriages and IVF. What you might not be too aware of is the anxiety I have suffered with after giving birth. Like most new parents I had the anxiety of keeping the babiesContinue reading “What might have been…”
Comparison
Sometimes I feel like a lost child who still needs her mum and dad. I’m not sure if these feelings are valid and acceptable as an adult and a parent myself. I’m not sure if it is because it’s approaching my own mums birthday and the milestone of seventy years old. It seems so unrealContinue reading “Comparison”
Saddened and Maddened
In the news this week they reported about Britney Spears (famous singer) who at 40 has lost her baby. The press printed Britney’s personal tweet on Twitter where she states that maybe they shouldn’t have announced the pregnancy as early as they did but they got carried away with the excitement. I am desperately saddenedContinue reading “Saddened and Maddened”
Bad mum!
No matter whether you are a biological, non biological or bereaved mum, we all have those times and days when we feel like a bad mum. I know dads feel like this too but I am writing from my own perspective so will be talking as mum. Sometimes we can’t do right for doing wrongContinue reading “Bad mum!”
One year!
I can’t quite believe we have had a whole year of loving you upon your arrival! People often say it goes so fast and in so many ways it does! You will always be our babies but at the moment you are most definitely our little people. It has been an absolute pleasure to watchContinue reading “One year!”
Are they good babies?
It’s another question that I have been asked on so many occasions since bringing the twins home. Are they good babies? I am assuming the person asking is referring to how the babies are sleeping, whether they cry much or fuss about everything. Basically are they easy babies? I have never felt comfortable with thisContinue reading “Are they good babies?”
Overwhelming Emotions
After our first Christmas when we enter the dark days and nights of January and life becomes a little less hectic, there is time to reflect. Christmas didn’t go as I had imagined in my head and wasn’t as special as I had anticipated due to numerous reasons. However there were still some magical momentsContinue reading “Overwhelming Emotions”
3 Years Old
I can’t quite believe that I am sat here typing this on what would have been your third birthdays. I’m not sure how those three years have passed. I know that because of you both, you made me stronger and showed me a love I never understood before you. In those three years I startedContinue reading “3 Years Old”
Stars in the Sky 