I haven’t written for a while and it’s not because I am in a blissful bubble of parenting but quite the opposite. I don’t know whether losing babies makes your guilt worse when you have been fortunate enough to eventually bring home what you always wanted. I sometimes wonder if I am even tougher onContinue reading “No one pushes my buttons like her…”
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Mother’s Day 🩵
I can’t quite believe how quickly it comes around! A day I find so difficult yet so honoured to mark. I feel heartbroken that I can’t celebrate this day with my own mother even nearly 10 years on. Nearly 10 years of grief! Time most definitely hasn’t healed but it has numbed the rawness andContinue reading “Mother’s Day 🩵”
What might have been…
Most of you know what Neil and I went through to bring Layla and Kayden home. You are aware of our losses, miscarriages and IVF. What you might not be too aware of is the anxiety I have suffered with after giving birth. Like most new parents I had the anxiety of keeping the babiesContinue reading “What might have been…”
Mothering Sunday
It’s that time of year again when Mother’s Day is fast approaching! A day that I have often found challenging for one reason or another. When my own mum passed away it was a day I struggled with because my love for her never died but the joy of celebrating that day did! I wasContinue reading “Mothering Sunday”
Are they good babies?
It’s another question that I have been asked on so many occasions since bringing the twins home. Are they good babies? I am assuming the person asking is referring to how the babies are sleeping, whether they cry much or fuss about everything. Basically are they easy babies? I have never felt comfortable with thisContinue reading “Are they good babies?”
No need to try again!
I have often written about throw away comments made by not only friends and family but also strangers. Often these comments are human nature in our need to communicate with each other. They are said with no thought and are a comment meant with no harm. Interestingly when I walk around with the twins inContinue reading “No need to try again!”
DNA
A friend visited our home the other day and whilst looking at Kayden she said how much he looked like Neil and asked jokingly if there was any of my DNA in him. She then went onto say that I just housed him for 9 months. Firstly I would like to state that this friendContinue reading “DNA”
Tears, patience, hope and love
Tick box
Tuesday evening I was coming home from work and walked indoors at about 8:50pm. I was met by Neil holding Kayden. This is unusual as he is normally asleep then and both our babies are quite placid and only need comforting when something is needed. Neil was in the kitchen checking on our dinner, KaydenContinue reading “Tick box”
Abstract
I spend the majority of my time with the twins even when I’m working they are at home with me. I believe in the 18 weeks of their lives I have had less than 50 hours away from them. Some of the reason for this is because I put pressure on myself to be theContinue reading “Abstract”
Stars in the Sky 